First- the ego, and else?

Listen, you don't know what will happen to you this time. first, this is my first blog that maybe can be my everyday heart trash journal. lol. about life, about problem or sometimes just junk. 

you know, i wrote whole thing about problems of life, love, food? in life, there are so many problems that you can't or can handle. just walk, through and enjoy even sometimes its hurt or unbelievable.

now i want to tell you about somebody who 'join' in my life. this life. a man who i can't ever imagine because he has not mmm something like fighting. lol. just know and then voila! there he is. walking together, have a life. i hope it will be wonderful. even sometimes there are many type or something that i couldn't change but live in there. 

tolerance, empathy are words that you have to have in this life, especially in marriage life. ego, oh this ruin everything. i know. know know know better about this. my ego, his ego, that's ruin. but we have to accept, release and give that ego some space, so that ego will stay but it will not ruin anything. 

back to somebody, he is type of man that care, sometimes too care and i can't do thing by my self, but i can. but he doesn't let me. but sometimes, he looks doesn't know anything about what happen. his life is based on work, you know its different from workahollic. like, if he has works, he will works until no clue, but if he doesn't have it, he will enjoy his life like sleeping or vacancy. its so different from workahollic. okay, mm, if i say, he is very good man. with every positive and negative about him. he can be good daddy, but yaaa again, the chemistry of work is so much better than the chemistry of him and his daughter. i don't know, maybe they need more time together, i mean quality time together like playing or chatting just two of them. not just going outside, but he busy with the phone and she busy with the bubble. lol.

yeaa.. phone. sometimes it ruin ruin everything. i can't say phone is a homewrecker, but it is. phone is important, but sometimes i feel like it control us. busy with phone about work, its okay. but if it just about unimportant video, i feel like, dude, please give your time like 30 minutes to chat or play about anything with yours. its yours too, not just mine. 

say it? i try to. but yaa.. maybe i have ego or inner child or something i don't know inside. so i can not say politely, or chill-y to him. and it burns. anger and sad. i cry or mad. and until now, i can't figure it out. i hope if i write everything, i can make something comes out from inside me. because, the problem is not just about him, or her, but also me. i am the person who can't let everything out. and it makes bad communication.